8 days

oh wells, cny is just around the corner and this is like really my last week of freedom b4 i go into tekong. lots of things that i wanna do in this last week but seems that lots of things clashign with each other. haha. but well, i think things have been much better since like 3 weeks ago when i felt that my hols was so empty and i'm just sitting at home wasting all my time away. God has really given me some meanign into my free time and i'm glad to say now that i feel a lot more free and relaxed, while at the same time knowing there have been breakthroughs in my cell group and in my own personal life also. and seeing pan leading those guys in rj to something new. just makes me feel fulfilled knowing that God is doing His work in His own time.

surprisingly, tekong doesnt seem that bad. haha, guess its just the transition that causes all the fear and stuff. ningjie told me that 'its great'. didnt really expect him to like ns so much. then the other guys i smsed all said that its starting to get boring etc. well, if their life is boring then what abt me arh? haha, i just hoping that my ns life wont be as boring as i expect. what with all the lack of physical trg and everything else. preparing a book list to bring in with me, but i just wonder how much time i have. just pray that God will have a purpose for me in camp such that i wont feel bored or misplaced. Amen! and also for the place that i'll go after bmt. if only if its a book out setting. honestly, i'm quite afraid if God's will for me is for me to go into a stay-in unit. like, it seems like such a waste of time and everything. 

and my personal life also. sometimes i think i can so easily neglect some of these things in the parts where most ppl in church or sch frens dun see. currently God seems to be speaking to me about stretching me in some area. cant really say what it is, but its something that goes real deep into my life, and the question is whether i will obey. and also last night and the night b4 struggled with some stuff also. haha, even though this blog is supposed to be a pte blog but cant post all thise things in case there's some person reading this. like what they say, blogs are never totally pte. oh wells.