year of increase!

i had a talk with joash before prayer meeting... basically an evaluation of 2008 lah, a very brief one albeit. main thing that we brought up was that even though i tried my best in ministry and taking care of the cell group, and learned a lot of things about relationships and discipling people, somehow i didnt manage to see fruits come out of it and i ended up qutie tired and disappointed. then i said that i felt that i could have taken up the chance to rise up and initiate stuff at different points of time, but i chose not to due to my fears and excuses, and joash totally agreed with that. he just ended it with telling me that he felt that i was like martha, caught up with doing things and making sure that everything is alright in my own eyes, like the contacts, but actually God is wanting to talk to me like mary and lead me to new and exciting things, things that i'll do that will break other people's, and even my own, mindsets about me.

through different things that has been happening i feel that God is leading me to two (for now) things in this month b4 i go shave my hair. 

1) to start up the ri group once again. after some time of reshuffling and moulding, i felt God leading me to lead those ri/rj peeps to once again meet up every week in sch, esp since there are now needs to be met

2) get my peer group going, at least to some extent. time for us to start to come together even as we're rising up in different areas of our ministry

a few weeks ago ps foo was praying for me and he basically confirmed what i felt the Holy Spirit was speaking to me, that God is bringing me to a new level. but he added other stuff. part of it was telling me to be humble and obedient. obedient i think i'm learning, but humble i think God has been showing me something during service today. i just saw a picture of how Jesus is gentle in heart, yet victorious in spirit, like a lamb yet a king. 

Although He existed in the form of God, 

did not regard equality with God a thing to be grasped,

but emptied Himself, 

taking the form of a bond-servant and being made in the likeness of men.

Being found in appearance as a man,

He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the pouint of death,

even death on a cross.

For this reason also, God highly exalted Him, and bestowed on Him the name which is above every name